Sunday, April 13, 2008

Feeling A Little Lost

Went to church tonight, and I realized something. I'm feeling a little lost and out of place. I thought I was trucking along doing pretty well. But not until I was sitting there amidst my Christian brothers and sisters did I truly feel how empty I have become. Not really sure what to do about this.

Yes I have strayed, yes I have been living a worldly life, but at the same time, I haven't gone off the deep end. I'm just not right on target.

My heart ached being there, and people asked me how I was doing, to which I quickly said, I'm ok and you. Pushing the focus off of myself onto them. Disconnected, empty and feeling alone.

Not a fun feeling. Feeling alone while surrounded by a group.